Melodies and Moroseness

I have been obsessed with this song for the past few days and I don't really know why. I have watched it so many times I could probably reenact it for you if you asked me to. But I won't because that's weird and why would you ask me to do that? Go away we're not friends I don't even know you.

In other news I've been finding myself feeling rather morose lately (good vocabulary word, eh?). This time, though, my moroseness isn't the cause of unrequited love and oh woe is me or any of that bullshit that I complained about so much last quarter.

Well okay it sort of is, but not in the way that you probably think. I'm no longer lamenting the fact that the object of my affection won't ever like me back due to obvious sexual orientation issues (He, unfortunately, NO EAT DA POO POO). I'm more stuck on the fact, this time, that I can't seem to convince myself that said unattraction is true. I mean obviously it's true, obviously he won't ever like me, I mean for fuck's sake he told me right to my face. For some reason though my brain keeps telling me that there's a chance still and I hate myself for even contemplating that.

Don't get me wrong though, I am trying to move on. It's just proving to be surprisingly difficult as of late. I can't seem to shake my feelings and move on like it seems so many others do. I guess part of having an addictive personality is having an obsessive personality too.

My friend told me to watch this video by the vlog brothers that I missed a while back, and I finally got around to watching it yesterday and I have subsequently decided that this is how I'm going to fix my life. I need to focus on being a friend and that's IT. We'll see how it goes.