I Feel So Alone...Kinda

I bet you thought this was going to be some hyper-emo rant about how the world sucks and how alone I feel in college didn't you? Well you were mostly right.

No, in actuality I do feel rather alone, but for no other reason than the fact that I miss my friends. Recently I've had a sort of falling out with one of the friends that I made here in good old Santa Barbara, and he happens to live down my hall, so it was super fun and easy to just visit each other at all hours of the day. Well we got in a bit of a tiff and now he's not speaking to me.

I actually ate lunch alone today. I know, I know, there's no excuse for eating alone, but I had to do it! All of my other friends were in class and I had nobody to eat with!

Back to the "miss my friends" part.

It's not that I don't like the new friends that I've made in SB, it's just that I don't know them nearly as well as my best friends back home. I have nobody to talk to, nobody to people watch with, nobody to tell me that I'm a freak for people watching. It's very sad.

And here's another thing: I had no idea college was going to be this hard. Apparently (obviously) community college doesn't even almost compare to "real" university. The pace is so fast and I'm so unused to this workload! As soon as I finish one bit of reading or one bit of homework there's more placed in front of me immediately. There's absolutely no respite! I have assignments due on the weekends! What is this?! Here is exactly what's been happening the last few weekends.

Me: "Oh gosh, it's finally friday, just a little bit more class and I'll be free for two whole days!"

The Universe: "HAHA just kidding, here's a crap ton of work for you to do, have a great weekend!"

Me:    :(

It happened like that, verbatim.

I need a break. Also I'm putting off chem homework to write this.

Goddammit.